i have not blogged for a long time. i have missed it though.
my life right now feels like it is in limbo.
i currently have no place to live. no place to call home. i am struggling to stay sober and straight. and i don't have jeremy anymore either. which may or may not be long term.
back in july i was raped. within an hour of that happening i started a neighbor's door (in my apartment) on fire. then i was evicted.
after that i stayed at this "supposed" Christian treatment center. i was there for about 5 weeks. then i left because i was not allowed to take clonazepam which i need to take.
i then went to stay with a friend and got jeremy back from my mom. my mom had taken all the grandkids for the summer.
i had jeremy back for about 6 days and then i decided to drink. and i also ended up trying crack for the first time. i was a totally mess for a couple days.
when i came back here to my friend's house she wanted me to call the ministry. so i did. and a social worker came and we drove Jeremy to my sister's house where he will be staying for awhile.
i will be talking to a social worker tomorrow to find out what happens next. i don't know what is best for me or for jeremy.
one day at a time. one step at a time. baby steps. that's what i am being told. but my life feels overwhelming much of the time these days.
i know i need help and i can't do this on my own. it is just that i do not know what to do first. i have a hard time planning things long term. mostly i can't plan anything beyond 7 days.
well i am waiting for jeremy to call me and also my friend.
will write again sometime. probably while i am here at least because they have the internet.
1 comments:
I hope you do write again very soon. writing was theraputic for you it helped you deal and think out so much. I am glad that Jeremy is with your sister while you are going through this. I am now so worried about you, your kidneys and everything! I will be thinking of you , of jeremy and I so pray you can return to us sober and clean. I am so sorry this has happened to you. I can imagine what you are going through I just want to reach out and hold your hand.
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