tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56217609439782380282009-02-20T17:20:40.783-08:00deeizakhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06885150102336283419noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5621760943978238028.post-3892200163551509662007-09-23T21:38:00.000-07:002007-09-23T21:41:09.764-07:00i am still sober. saw jeremy today too.<br /><br />my sister has interim custody until next month. then the ministry is going for a six month order. he would still be staying with my sister.<br /><br />jeremy's dad saw him today too. at our church.<br /><br />i am quite tired. it has been a good day. will write again.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5621760943978238028-389220016355150966?l=deeizak.blogspot.com'/></div>deeizakhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06885150102336283419noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5621760943978238028.post-48417664008258356892007-09-09T19:47:00.001-07:002007-09-09T20:01:11.992-07:00i have not blogged for a long time. i have missed it though.<br /><br />my life right now feels like it is in limbo.<br /><br />i currently have no place to live. no place to call home. i am struggling to stay sober and straight. and i don't have jeremy anymore either. which may or may not be long term.<br /><br />back in july i was raped. within an hour of that happening i started a neighbor's door (in my apartment) on fire. then i was evicted.<br /><br />after that i stayed at this "supposed" Christian treatment center. i was there for about 5 weeks. then i left because i was not allowed to take clonazepam which i need to take.<br /><br />i then went to stay with a friend and got jeremy back from my mom. my mom had taken all the grandkids for the summer.<br /><br />i had jeremy back for about 6 days and then i decided to drink. and i also ended up trying crack for the first time. i was a totally mess for a couple days.<br /><br />when i came back here to my friend's house she wanted me to call the ministry. so i did. and a social worker came and we drove Jeremy to my sister's house where he will be staying for awhile.<br /><br />i will be talking to a social worker tomorrow to find out what happens next. i don't know what is best for me or for jeremy.<br /><br />one day at a time. one step at a time. baby steps. that's what i am being told. but my life feels overwhelming much of the time these days.<br /><br />i know i need help and i can't do this on my own. it is just that i do not know what to do first. i have a hard time planning things long term. mostly i can't plan anything beyond 7 days.<br /><br />well i am waiting for jeremy to call me and also my friend.<br /><br />will write again sometime. probably while i am here at least because they have the internet.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5621760943978238028-4841766400825835689?l=deeizak.blogspot.com'/></div>deeizakhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06885150102336283419noreply@blogger.com1